Isaiah 41:13 (NKJV)

For I, the LORD your God, will hold your right hand, saying to you, "Fear not, I will help you."

Sunday, March 30, 2008


"we think we're trapped in our situation, but really we're trapped in our own thinking..."
-Laurie Elliot

sometimes the fog is just so thick we can't see the path ahead.

but with every weeping in the night comes dawning and rejoicing.

and the peace that transcends everything when we bring everything to Him in prayer and learn to trust Him and surrender all to Him.

it's our attitude. Help us to see Your goodness, O Lord.

Friday, March 28, 2008







歌林多前书12:26 :“若一个肢体受苦,所有的肢体就一同受苦;若一个肢体得荣耀,所有的肢体就一同快乐。”

Monday, March 24, 2008

"no turning back, no turning back"

a good bright sunny day and a long winding road ahead turned my hour-long grocery trip to a 3-hour long cycling adventure to nowhere. well, it is somewhere, but it felt like i'm in the middle of nowhere.

it's exciting to finally cycle out of the range covered in my well-used map. the rays of the sun shining on my back, the rush of wind against my cheeks, pedaling uphill, racing downhill... all these exuberated a certain kind of carefree, liberating feeling that i've never felt before. the thankfulness that was generated was akin to the deep sense of gratitude that filled my heart while sitting on the swing in the front porch of the Elliots' residence in Ajigasawa. it's as if i've been zoomed out of... life? not really. i was very present where i was. the peace that washed over me set me at ease. i am finally at ease! *smiles* such peace and calmness allowed in the midst of a busy week are certainly gifts from above. perhaps the first of many steps towards learning to pause and breathe. it is this kinda pausing that builds up a foundation of solid rock within while there's a storm on the outside.

this little flower (?) caught my eye (looked like a tiny cabbage to me). it really stood out awkwardly around the dirty dark brown hardened mud surrounding it - i had to give it a gentle kick to find out if it's actually part of the dried muddiness. it is. such bright hope springing out from dark, unattractive dirt. spring is definitely here =)

horsey certainly brought much delight. Mitsuki was trying to convince us that he saw a horse in Hirosaki before but we weren't too convinced. Now i can tell him he's right!

i've never been much of an adventurous person. can't blame me. i grew up where girls are in constant danger whenever they are in solitude (or not), whether in broad daylight or in the darkness of the night. neither have i been much of a spontaneous person. but there's enough 自動販売機s (vending machines) around to make sure i will not die of thirst even if i get lost.

it must be the big change - that liberating, carefree sense of freedom, the refreshing change from the concrete jungle i grew up in, that got me to cycle on and on. it was hard to turn back. it's like you found something good, something very good, and u want to pursue it relentlessly. so much so that your normal fears are taken away from you. i've always feared being stranded, not knowing my way back. or if i become too tired to go back. but somehow this beautiful afternoon, i just wanted to cycle on. there's assurance that i'll be ok, that i'll know when to stop.

and so in the middle of nowhere, i found it to be somewhere:

Toogijuku! the high school I've read so much about (well, more than any other schools in Japan anyway). it's part of my history class on John Ing and his contribution to Hirosaki.

more photos from my little outing:

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Babe in my arms

Unexpected farm visit.

The mother.


Poor little piglet!


I did hold him in my arms. But I think I still need to learn to hold a cat, a piglet, a dog, whatever... He reminded me of a pink stuffed piglet I once had. I named him Hosea. heh.

They were really cute! and no, there weren't any smell at all. Sigh. It'll be hard to eat pork without thinking of the little piglet in my arms. Road to vegetarianism?

Passover Feast on Good Friday

I got to participate in the Passover Feast in Ajigasawa Chapel on Good Friday. It was really pleasant. Though an edited version (without the liturgy), it brought back streams of memories of OCF!

the Charoset. I rmb Bomi telling me, "I've no idea how it's supposed to look like!" my reply? "neither. and i bet no one else does!" - it came to be the most popular dish that night.

that's how I had my Charoset. On Matzah (flat unleavened bread) and lettuce.

instead of Roast Lamb, we had 焼肉 (yakiniku) lamb. well, it's still lamb! reminded me of how Greg and Hilda Hughson (Otago Uni Chaplain) so kindly offered to roast a lamb for us last year.

Bitter herbs was substituted with wasabi. That will surely bring tears and remind you of pain and sufferings! ;p

a rooster. reminder of Peter's denial of Christ (Matthew 26:74-75). it didn't end there. he was later reinstated and went on to share the gospel of Christ boldly. "And I tell you that you are Peter, and on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of Hades will not overcome it." -Matthew 16:18

Last week on Palm Sunday we had a hen. "O Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, but you were not willing. " -Matthew 23:37

purple Lenten candles.

Memories of Passover @ OCF last year came flooding back. I thought about the team - scrambling to put something together. God in His grace provided. I thought about Greg and Hilda. Their kindness and generosity. I thought about Wan Yin, my flatmate who came. I thought about Passover two years ago, where Anthony led the liturgy. I wonder how the George family's doing...

It's about people.

It's about Him, His grace and lovingkindness.

Not alone

There are times when you can sense that you're not alone...

Even when all seems still...

You look around and listen...

Nothing. Yet, you know you're not alone.

That's how I felt last night.

then... I heard snores. Snores?!

Since when one's own snores are audible to oneself?

Scanning the area...

Zoom in...


Cat: Who's this trespassing in my territory?

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

I'm home - 私の帰るべきところ

- 詩篇73:28

I Will Bring You Home (by Michael Card)

Though you are homeless
Though you're alone
I will be your home

Whatever's the matter
Whatever's been done
I will be your home

I will be your home
I will be your home
In this fearful fallen place
I will be your home

When time reaches fullness
When I move my hand
I will bring you home

Home to your own place
In a beautiful land
I will bring you home

I will bring you home
I will bring you home
From this fearful fallen place
I will bring you home
I will bring you home

Saturday, March 08, 2008

my waking thought

"which cafe should I start with today?"


(by order of location from my apartment)


Cafe Resto Refuge


Pebble cafe


Paris Tei



Cafe Jeeba


and of course, there's still Tea&Co., Doutour, RenGaTei, Renaisse etc which I haven't got very good pictures of... and there's Cafe Delina, Cafe Heritage, Salon de cafe Ange, Jazz & Cafe, Blue House, Ichiban etc... which I haven't tried... and heaps more I haven't spotted...

Friday, March 07, 2008

til we meet again

i don't like saying goodbye.

today, i found out that, not saying goodbye is even worse.

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Cafe Jeeba

After countless times of walking past and peering in, I finally reached out to pull at the sliding door. (well, I actually pushed it first before realizing it's a sliding door...)

this made me wonder if i could still froth milk properly...

Baileys latte that came with a kiss

reminds me of... you and you.

Monday, March 03, 2008

Welcome back Andie!

Andie went to France for a month. It was good to hear her footsteps again this morning in her apartment just above mine. We were excited about having her back and thought lunch would be good. Since we figured she's probably still snoozing, we decided it will take too long to get her ready and out for lunch so we brought lunch to her instead!

we ate out of each other's bentos =)


3 strawberries. one for each princess.

doing random spontaneous things are fun! bowling didn't work out but ah well~ there's always another Sunday =)

Sunday, March 02, 2008

Choices. Changes.

"I used to have this idea that God was leading me to some particular end in this life, some desired goal. I'd get so excited, so anxious, I would barely pay attention to the present moment.

But I'm finding out more and more that reaching a particular earthly goal is merely incidental. It is trusting and obeying the Lord Jesus Christ in the mile of the journey right now that counts."


"... the journey continues. And it is still a drama of choices and changes for us all."

-Joni Eareckson Tada, "Choices.Changes"