Isaiah 41:13 (NKJV)

For I, the LORD your God, will hold your right hand, saying to you, "Fear not, I will help you."

Saturday, September 19, 2009

need more adrenaline

I must have been running on adrenaline today and I think my adrenaline hype came and peaked at the wrong time and just as I need to climb uphill somemore, the adrenaline level has sharply declined, leaving me somewhat blank in the mind and breathless.


Monday, September 14, 2009

the Sixth Sola

Sola Deprecatio.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

a rising generation of rebels?

i think one of the things young people have been blessed with, is that rebellious streak - that refusal to conform and swallow everything shoved down their throats.

people are struggling to get free. it's like that caterpillar turning butterfly process where the caterpillar has to keep struggling to free itself.

observations in my first year back in Malaysia have repeatedly led to similar certain questions, a degree of discontent and the increasing awareness of an instinctive rebellious streak in myself. Now, is that something we should all frown upon and say no no to? I am tempted to, or even did, feel somewhat guilty for being so uncooperative at the unseen level in the depths of my heart and have tried to keep it hidden. unfortunately, i have my little outbursts, which I feel bad about. but today, when i see that same rebellious streak in an email from another young person, i'm amused. we're a generation of rebels man!

but of course, unguided rebellion could be fatal.

that's why we need to get on our knees and pray, and our actions should come as a result of our prayers and intimate walk with the Lord.

just minutes ago, i was in church listening to Dr. Paul Davies talk about contextualized missional theology. i can understand where he's coming from and where he's going. Dr. Davies was talking about contextualized missional theology. I think we need contextualized generational theology too.

"Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity." -1 Timothy 4:12

but when we are fearful to step out, not sure of ourselves and not sure if what we do is "right" (more in the sight of God rather than of man), what's gonna gives us assurance and confidence?

The next verse says:

"...devote youself to the public reading of Scripture...."

Call me quoting out of context if you like. But yea, let's dig into the Word.

And if we have to rebel, rebel in love.

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

doing vs. being

"Have you heard yourself in the past few days? You've always asked 'what should I do?' or 'how do I...'. Don't get so caught up with the doing, just BE."

It's not about the doing. It's about BEING.

Let me cease from doing tonight, head to bed early for once, and just BE.

Good night, Abba.

Monday, September 07, 2009

12 days

is it only 12 days til thePlan09?

I think I have butterflies in my stomach. it's the first time I've ever had pre-conference jitters.

Friday, September 04, 2009


It wasn't until 2 hours after I started work that I began to feel like I'm finally awake. Not fully, but at least partially awake.

I blame the coffee.

Thursday, September 03, 2009

blurry eyes

When things start to appear blurry, it clearly means it's time for bed. Even when I still have 101 urgent things lined up. ok, maybe not 101, but maybe 10.1.

Tomorrow will come. In fact, it's already here. Let me not cheat myself by stealing the hours of "tomorrow" and use it for yesterday.