but no matter what my head tries to tell my heart, this is how I really feel:
I can't help but wonder, how much more does my head need to brainwash my heart (heartwash?) before I will stop feeling like this?
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls."
It is the eye of faith that will allow me to see beyond the circumstances. But I lack this faith. O God, help me to see things from Your perspective!