self-confidence vs God-confidence

For someone with inferiority complex, self-confidence is hard to come by. You feel you're never good enough, and you worry endless about how things just won't turn out for you. The "I can't do it"s dominate everything you do and you get intimidated by almost everything, everyone. OK. Perhaps this description is a bit extreme but these symptoms do occur, whether or not we make it known to people around us.

However, we have an awesome God who is above all things. He's the Almighty, Sovereign Lord. Nothing is impossible with God. Better yet, He's our strength and our source of everything good. We live a life of victory in Him and Romans 8:28 declares "...we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." But... many of us haven't even begun to comprehend the least of the power that is at work within us, much less utilise the all-surpassing power that is so readily available to us as we work hand-in-hand with God in fulfilling His purposes.

I wonder what it's like to be confident. I've never really been a very confident person. There are more "I can't"s than "yea, let's do it!". I'm glad I have a big God behind me. It's like in The Godfather where u have the mafia bosses behind you, just that my God is bigger than any mafia boss, bigger than all mafia bosses put together.

"And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit, who lives in you."
-Romans 8:11

"we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us."
-2 Cor 4:7

So we know our God is all powerful. But do we really believe that His promises are for us? Or do we just think, yea, God's awesome wonders' working for everyone. except me. Why do we exclude ourselves from His wonderful plans when He so much wants to show us so much more? Why do we settle for the mere teasers and be satisfied with that?

"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us..."
-Ephesians 3:20

You gotta step out of the boat to walk on water. (but be sure that God has called you out of the boat k, don't so gung-ho step out without God's guidance and then blame Him when you sink). Your part: step out of the boat. God's part: you'll walk on water. Just like the servants: fill up the jars with water. Jesus: turn the water into wine.

scared to step out? Forget about self-confidence. Cultivate God-confidence.

(My apologies. I have a feeling this post's not making much sense. Hehe. Late nights + too cold~)