School of Pain

Many times, I've eyed my Lord through my tears from the corner of my eye, wondering if He really knew how I felt. yea... sure, He knows pain, but what about the kind of pain I'm having?

His pain sounds noble.

Mine? I probably deserve it, such a wretched fallen sinner.

Then he said to them, "My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me."
-Matthew 26:38

During the days of Jesus' life on earth, he offered up prayers and petitions with loud cries and tears to the one who could save him from death, and he was heard because of his reverent submission.
-Hebrews 5:7

Loud cries and tears. From the deep recesses of his heart. He was heard. But was he spared the cross?

"Not my will but Yours be done"

"I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death"
-Philippians 3:10

"Now I rejoice in what was suffered for you, and I fill up in my flesh what is still lacking in regard to Christ's afflictions, for the sake of his body, which is the church."
-Colossians 1:24

I'm not doing exegesis here, pardon me if I'm out of context. But now, I'm slowly learning - that instead of asking:

"Does He understand my pain?"

I ask - "Have I understood His?"