a BIG surprise

I haven't had such a big surprise for a long time. Admittedly I was looking for registration forms. I even prayed for it man (*apologetic look to Iris*). But instead, I was caught by a huge surprise! Such great delight! *All smiles*

After being told to WATCH - Monday night's surprise was kinda like a prelude to further surprises He has in store.

I'm excited! Gotta Watch Him. Wait in anticipation, and Watch.

OK Lord, now...

for the registration forms. ;p

a good cuppa

today, i felt like i really needed a good cuppa.

Zilch
Cafe Jeeba
Cafe Iris
Pebble Cafe

Ahhh... the good cuppas of yesteryears. When I craved for my good cuppa today, my mind searched high and low for one that would satisfy... I could only think of Delicious. Maybe I need to increase my exposure to cafes around in KL.

Just a random photo I felt like putting up:

bring back the anxiety...

...that'll perhaps drive me to my knees more.

not a bad thing ay?

not a bad thing at all.

"mathematically impossible"

I was running late so I squeezed my car into that tiny little space between the tiara and the wall. God brought along Uncle Damien and Aunty Yoke Lin to watch out for me. After getting parked, I couldn't get through the space between my car & the tiara in front, but thankfully I just managed to squeeze through the space between my car & the wall.

When a friend saw my car, he went "it's mathematically impossible to get out". I was almost beginning to worry a little. But if I could get my car in, then I could get my car out right?

With some pushing (so that I don't bang the wall or the tiara should I ever so lightly tap on the accelerator), after lotsa of twisting the steering right right right, then left left left, we got the car out!

I suppose perhaps it might not have been so impossible, but what struck me from this little incident is that - it never occurred to me that it wasn't a possible thing, that it would be difficult or I wouldn't be able to do it. I needed to park my car, there was a little space and I went in.

It's not about my driving skills. Now if you know the way I drive, you would understand what I'm saying. My friends used to take over the wheels just to park my car for me back in college days.

It's about how when we're given a task, He will equip us with everything we need to get that task accomplished. From bringing along Uncle & Aunty to help, and then more friends later to help, and of course with divine technical help from Him, God parked the car for me. Another important thing is, the thought that it's not do-able never crossed my mind, and when I don't think that it's impossible, fear don't come in and grip me.

I still don't think it's anxiety that's been keeping me from sleeping in the past week. I'd like to think it's excitement. Although I must admit that, somewhere between now and theplan09, there are some missing pieces that I have yet to see coming into the picture. But praise be to God - He is the God who is able to do immeasurably more than what I can ask for or imagine. And the important thing is, I don't think I'm doubting that it will come to pass (or maybe I've learnt to suppress disbelief well? hope not). That's why I think excitement is a more appropriate explanation to my sleepless nights.

Now... to learn to sleep in spite of the excitement. That's divinely possible.

theplan09, Malaysian Youth Missions Conference: Sept 20-23

http://www.theplan09.weebly.com

liberated

"So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed." -John 8:36

You know that deep seething anger that burns in your heart, which you just can't seem to shake out of it no matter how much you want to be free? The shackles that so binds you that you cry out for deliverance?

I have been set free.

All praise and glory unto Him.

"What joy shall fill my heart"

"Then sings my soul,
My Saviour God to Thee,
How Great Thou Art,
How Great Thou!"

There's a stanza that goes:

When Christ shall come, with shout of acclamation,
And take me home, what joy shall fill my heart.
Then I shall bow, in humble adoration,
And then proclaim: "My God, how great Thou art!"

Already, the joy is filling my heart and I proclaim "My God, my great Thou art!"

Mountaintop experiences aren't a daily thing, but sometimes, it doesn't take much to be teleported to the mountaintop - and there,

"then sings my soul, my Saviour God to Thee,
how Great Thou Art, How Great Thou Art!!"

You know, my words fail to describe the feeling - it's kinda like joy bursting forth from the heart. I don't even know why and where this joy came from. But let me remember this moment, especially in times when the waves are a little rough, and know that Hope is never far off.

hmmmm...

Sometimes, I feel like I'm going crazy.

But I think maybe I just need sleep.